Toilet Seats and Greatness 58/100

Gratitude

This one is kind of weird, 

but stick with me.

Today I'm grateful that

MHG replaced our toilet seat yesterday.

See I told you weird, right?

Back in February when

I was super depressed

I had just gotten back from

a doctor's appointment

where I realized how bad

my weight gain really was

after having a baby.

I sat down on the toilet

seat and the lid broke off

of the seat part.

For the last several months

it has been taunting me 

reminding me of my weight.

Yesterday MHG put on a new

toilet seat and I feel free!

So it's crazy,

but I'm super grateful for that.

The Word

Psalm 138:3

"In the day when I cried thou answeredst me, and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul."

On my heart...

Yesterday I had planned on writing

this amazing post, but by the

time everyone had left my birthday party

I was tired and had a pretty bad

headache, so I didn't write much.

Now I'm not sure I can live up

to what I was thinking about writing.

Let's find out!

Yesterday being my birthday,

I was thinking about 

what has been the most important thing

I've learned in the last 33 years.

There are lots of little lessons.

It was hard to choose one, 

but then I remembered what had

happened starting at around midnight yesterday.

L had  been sleeping so well through

the night this week that I just

figured she would that night too,

so I could enjoy a good night's

rest before having fun on my birthday.

At around midnight,

She woke up screaming.

I went in and got her to sleep again,

but every time I would put her in

her crib she would wake up crying again.

I really let my half asleep mind

get me worked up about it.

I started getting mad because

I was never going to have a 

day to do the things I wanted again.

I was not going to get a good night's

sleep before my birthday.

It wasn't fair.

And on and on like that.

I finally got so upset.

I laid her down in her crib

and told MHG that I was done.

He then got up and spent a couple

hours trying to get her to sleep.

He fed her, took her for a drive

and several other things before she

finally would sleep when he put

her in her crib.

The entire time he was doing it

I wasn't sleeping

because I was laying there

feeling guilty for thinking

any of the thoughts I had been

thinking and to top that off

my sweet husband who

had to be up at 5 to get ready for work

was now spending hours 

trying to get the baby to sleep.

My guilt was on overdrive.

I kept thinking about how

I was a horrible mother

and other not so pretty thoughts.

I really love my daughter

and I love that I get to take care of her

and teach her and watch her grow.

So as I was thinking of what the biggest 

lesson I have learn in my life so far

was, this situation popped

in my head and I realized

that the most important thing

is that we get to make mistakes.

Then it is our choice 

whether we learn from them

and use them to learn and grow

into our greatness.

Or we can bemoan our lives

and feel guilty that we're not

doing as well as we think we should.

The only reason I am the amazing

woman I am today is because

I made a lot of mistakes that

have helped me learn and

grow into my greatness.

I still have a lot of

time here in earth school

to make new mistakes and

grow even more in to my greatness.

I'm thankful for all the hard learning

experiences I've had in my life.

They have lead me to this marvelous

journey I walk everyday.

They have lead me to seeing

myself through my Heavenly 

Father's eyes (at least partially)

and living in my greatness.

My Soulful Brilliance,

I love my life!